The Folly

To capture thoughts in words, lifeless and cold,
Presents a wall to scale, my courage daunts.
Do I expect to make my heart a font,
Flowing into letters, so easy told?
To say what fills my soul would be too bold,
As if my words come from a holy mont.
The tongues of men, they are too free, too wont
To babble on and think no story old.
Upon the backs of greatest men I stand,
They do inspire my mind to write anew,
Knowing full well their wit I cannot match.
So authors great, lend me a helping hand,
Give me your power, so that I may do
What you have done: words to my soul attach.

Companion

If you should think I shy from your sad heart,
Be still, and know I could not turn away.
I seek to make your tears and cries depart,
And waken you to see the light of day.
Your quiv'ring lips and shaking pale cold hands
Do make such pity rise up in my soul.
The love I feel from high in me demands
I try my best to make your wounds feel whole.
As thoughts are spilled and secrets rise from dust,
Your downcast frame within my arm is clutched.
When humble words turn doubt to lasting trust,
Minutes turn to days; two hearts become touched.
Let sorrow run; let unhappiness flee,
For I am here with you; and you with me.

In Glass

The picture in the window frame
Reflects my frame of mind
Branches jagged, desolate
On trees weary and worn
Leafless, flowerless, powerless
Beaten down by winter's chill
So too a tired soul wishes to become
Producing nothing, expecting no one
No more than a tragic backdrop
Yet more is seen through smudgy panes
The sky both clear and blue
Birds flitting from branch to branch
Giving purpose to the deadened wood
The sun shines through, the storms long gone
No cloud can cast a shadow
Spring is coming, its fanfare is heard
Its banners in the distance, gleaming
Soon the trees will bloom again
The soul will rise again
And the new picture will be that of a smile

What if

I can't shake it.
The nagging, itching, burning feelings.
Questions and uncertainties.
Doubts and second thoughts.
Pushing it all aside, sliding it right back.
Mind never at rest.
Some odd, unending inclination,
That some failure lies unseen.
That catastrophe is on the horizon,
That there's something I've done wrong.
A missed opportunity,
A misinterpreted word,
Actions and reactions recalled.
Regretted.
Reevaluated.
What did he think?
What did she mean?
What am I thinking?
Why does it matter?
Am I just making too much of it all?
Torn between shallow and overzealous,
Twisting in the winds of interpretation.
I wonder.
The only remedy,
To see the past as stone,
The present as fluid,
The future as wispy air.
Ignore the if, if, ifs,
And trust in tomorrow's chances.

If I can.

Good?

What is good in life?

Is it good to seek a lover's embrace,
To fall into someone's arms again and again,
Whispering the meaningless lyrics of love?
Is it good to strive for fame and fortune,
Look to success for succor?
Should man improve the self, or others?
Is it good to care about nothing,
To ignore all precepts and free one's will,
Chiding all who would point to law?
Would it be the best course
To devote one's self to a cause,
A path, a religion,
Though he might never see his labor's fruits?
Can one even be truly selfless,
If giving begets satisfaction?
Is it good to create, forge, write,
To push the arts beyond their norms,
And be misunderstood by a generation?
What is good? Who decides?
Does it even matter?

I see a world of people.
Individuals think, act, live.
Are they ants in a laboratory?
Or are they a pantheon?
When I sit here in my chair,
Staring at a digital screen,
Can I take any pride in myself
While a child takes his last sickly breath
In a land I'll never deign to visit?

What is good?
Is anything good?
Is good anything?

I'll never find the answers
If I only ask myself.

Weathering

These clouds remain
Pouring their rain
Sparking from the friction
They wait to ignite flames
Striking the dry brush of resentment
Burning away into anger
Desire to hide
Attempt to get away
Retreat into a fortress of misery
But only darkness awaits there
Deeper and blacker than the shadows of the clouds
A prison built and maintained by the self
While that torture lasts, so does the storm
Inescapable if unchallenged
To see the sun again, shrug off the chains of pity
Dismantle the walls of self-sorrow
Remove the shell of personal hell
And see a crack in the sky
A patched quilt warming the landscape
Shape the weather without knowing the forecast
And you may come to realize
That cloudy skies can be the most beautiful

Shadows

A shadow on the heart.
Stormclouds gather on a winter's day.
Freezing rain pours down.
Pray for sun to pierce the veil,
But that day is long in coming.
A chill wind.
The spine tenses.
Hair raises, senses on alert.
It is coming.
Cracking like a glacier, pushing waves of despair.
To catch a snowflake on the tongue tastes bitter.
To trudge through the piled snow saps strength.
When will the spring come?
When will green leaves return to bare branches,
Smooth grass cover the hard, dark soil,
And flowers paint their tapestry?
All the world waits breathlessly,
All of one's world waits for what's next.
Waiting. Yearning. Longing.
All that is ever known.
When will a new fire melt this sheet of ice?
When will the walls of fantasy stop collapsing,
Endlessly building and tearing themselves down?
Control wrested away by the claws of fortune,
Determination lost in a sea of madness.
Ensnared, the creature cannot escape.
Not for a time.
Thorns of a rose, a flower,
So easily missed, so unintentionally placed,
And so sharp to the touch.
Bless the hand that takes away.
Turn back to naive innocence and find the door shut.
One day, the clouds will part, the light return,
The spirit will be reborn.
But until that day,
When suffering turns to satisfaction,
A shadow on the heart remains.